Archive for April, 2015


keta’s even day

I can’t tell her about the day she was born. I can’t tell her about how old she was when she learned to walk or how much fun her first birthday was. I can’t tell her about her first tooth or her first word. I can agonize over that loss for her and for me and sometimes I do. Today though, we’re celebrating! We’re celebrating a made up family holiday, a once in a lifetime we’re even day! Although we know her DOB is not correct, it’s all we have so we go with it, and today, we’re even. She’s been with her forever family exactly as long as she was waiting, just over three years.  So even though we lost so much and so much is forever unknown we have this awesome holiday when the answer to this phenomenal little girl’s every request is, “Yes!” Today the only thing she’ll be agonizing over is where to have dinner and more importantly, what to choose for dessert.


She knows that today she calls all the shots.  We can do anything, eat anywhere or cook anything.  She chose to walk the dogs along the river where she and her sister (and her four legged siblings) played and jumped and ran and got soaked.  She chose doughnuts for dessert, chocolate ones with sprinkles, and for dinner she chose Taco Bell.  We’ve never been so I don’t even know how she knows about Taco Bell, but Taco Bell it was.  She’s now enjoying a movie (ON A SCHOOL NIGHT!) and has had an amazing we’re even day.


this day

April 2012


DSC_0373April 2015


IMG_7641How did my babies get so big so quickly?  Did I remember to enjoy every way too fast second?  Looking back is such a good reminder that time flies and this day with my kiddos this exact age only happens this day.  Tomorrow they’ll be bigger and older and this day will be gone.  Need to go hug ’em!




It’s tradition for Francine and I to “sing” at the top of our lungs on the way to school after we drop off Keta.  Sometimes, we’re even “singing” the same song at the same time, although not usually.  If we happen to choose the same song to belt out at a painful volume we’re never on the same part of the song at the same time, nor do either of us even know the words.  This does not stop us from fancy clapping and hooting and hollering in appreciation of our giftedness when we’re done (or need to give our throats a recovery period).  Mama, you’re the best!  No, no Francine, you’re the best!  The other day Francine was laughing and said that Keta would be laughing and clapping too, but she would NOT be saying encore!

On the weekends I usually get to sleep in ten or fifteen minutes.   I’m actually always awake, but enjoy not needing to jump out of bed and rush to get three of us ready and out of the house before 6:45.  It lasts almost as long as it takes to sigh contentedly and then my door is bursting open and Francine is shouting, “Mama, are you awake?  Mama?  Mama?”  Then I have knees and elbows in my back and my face and dogs competing for cuddles too and a cat walking up from my toes to sit on my shoulder.  There’s always bickering about blankets and which one gets the first turn closest to me and someone always had a terrible nightmare and the other someone had one too! and almost exactly the same terrible nightmare! and what’s for breakfast? and what are we going to do after breakfast? and can we ride our bikes? and Mama why is there a pillow on your ears?  So, during the week, my alarm never goes off and if it did, it’s not even an alarm, it’s a pleasant tone thing on my phone coming nowhere near the volume of Francine or a door thrown open.  I’m always awake before it goes off so I just turn it off.  Except a few weeks ago I forgot to turn it off and it went off while I was in the shower and Francine heard it and even though she was awake and waiting for me to be out of the shower she has not let me forget it.  Every night saying with disgust, “I hope that alarm doesn’t turn on again and wake me up so early!”  I get it, I have that same thought every night too.





In anticipation of my daughters changing their minds about college, I’ve started a business!  It’s called safi and you can find us on Facebook at safi.pure.natural.  The products have awesome ingredients and are made by hand in small batches in our home.  I’ve made these butters and lotion bars since my girls came home almost three years ago and they are fantastic!  We use them on their skin and hair and my skin.  We’ve given them as teacher gifts and neighbor gifts and just about everything else and everyone loves them!  Right now there’s a buy a 4 ounce lotion bar and get a second 4 ounce lotion bar half price sale (no limit to the buy one get one half off).  Check us out on Facebook and then stock up for mother’s day and for yourself and for all your other gift giving needs.  The lotion bars really are great and last a long time.  Most of the time shipping is just $6.  All you have to do is leave your order and your email on the Facebook page (or email me at and I’ll get an invoice to you and then some really great products.  Thanks!




happy easter

New bling from E. Bunny, eggs with “Hape Estr” on them, build a bunny pancakes and a heap-o-cream on strawberries — hope your Easter is as fun as ours!  Have a great one! (Please, ignore that we’re half done adding beads to twists.)




IMG_7694Happy Easter from the farmer girls!